No. 203 - Before the Wind Finds Us

Some of us get to live our dreams a thousand times before they materialize, and we don’t know it.

We fall asleep in cabins in beautiful sailboats. We’re measured for suits before going to Savile Row. We feel the recoil of a hundred thousand dollar shotgun before pulling the trigger.

And we do it every day – for years. It’s how we cope with disappointments and failures and the never ending barrage of humiliations.

We’re a delusional lot. We dive head first into fantasy. We’re hopeless romantics, loners, dreamers on the wrong side of the bell curve.

We’re degenerate gamblers who can’t see the odds. We’re incapable of taking an objective look at the consequences of our decisions: and we double down.

But the winds that evaded our sails eventually come full force. We course correct for the hundredth time, tacking endlessly, until a billow of opportunity lands an undeniable punch - and in a moment we know we are not, in fact, insane. But, for a moment, we’re as confused as every person who predicted (and sometimes rooted for) our failure.

*Composed, Edited, and Published in Austin, TX